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I am not the one who is panicked

I am not the one who needs a solution

I am not the one who is overwhelmed right now

….i am the silent witness

Learned from Rancho Cucamango Mountains on rooftop while naked.

1.) I forgive y'all

2.) I trust that dog

3.) My authentic frequency is not criminal

3 Nutshell. 3 Mauntras. Addressing 3 energies blocks. Continuous usage.

Helicopter Analogy:

Helicopter = body

Above copter wings = in flight (above;diagonal to body)

Say it: -“he'll just bark 10 more times and be around for 5 more mins” foreshadow the ending! Instant pause to clenching - “they'll just talk 5 more times and be done in 16 mins”

“I love you I forgive you” on repeat til you're focused on something completely new

Nothing can take over your mood, even if it feels like it temporarily, there is always a greater focus

Jesus Christ, bring me the money I need to buy this flight today. And please teach me how to stop feeling so guilty for no reason.

Satan, Lord Lucifer, please call in the boys that will pay. Satan, come on. Work with me here. I need more boys. Bigger money.

Higher consciousness, I know you're watching. Just please get me this money.

What do you do when you feel like your condition is that number six does not feel optional, that's some primitive part of you will repeatedly take over my longer length of meditation for 30+ minutes has certainly helped the dissolving of the bait the hijack, but that's the premise of my condition, and when a part of your condition feels like you're always perpetually obsessively trying to do number eight. And this condition where you always feel like number three is perpetually constantly happening to you even if you know, neutrally, and on a bigger level that there is no malicious intent with any external noise.

I am noticing when it feels like I can only co-regulate through embarrassment

I am considering that the universe may just be keeping me in one big misunderstanding just to extract an energy from vocalization that once felt an expressed will carry with me and that is the only seed that I need a harvest

I am aware of when people are trying to cast a condition onto me because of their own emotional wound

Don't let it find a hook

I am just a silent watcher

I am not any of this

How can I transform from this experience?

What if I didn't get down on myself about “God doesn't like me”

What do you do when what you want the most may not be what's best for you?

This body does not harm people

This fear is separate from my truth

“The meaning maker changed”

How can I transform from this experience?

What if I didn't get down on myself about “God doesn't like me”

What do you do when what you want the most may not be what's best for you?

This body does not harm people

This fear is separate from my truth

“The meaning maker changed”

Higher self,

What city would I show up for a job in? What city would I tolerate the people in

Even if I feel trapped right now, what will my invisible body allow me to focus on?

No one's throat can control my breath

I am noticing the shrink and then pair (auto enmeshment)

Acting feelings / acting reactions / acting thoughts

You are unstoppable

You are amazing

I am remembering to do paper bag hand hole technique

I am remembering to stare at the keyboard and speak technique with eye movement

You are not your mind - you are the one observing your mind

I am noticing when I am trying to avoid being annoyed (sounds, people, etc)

I am noticing when I am trying to catch aliveness

The passing radio silence when you pass by the someone's radio station, the noticing of the pull, to their station

I am not afraid of getting stuck in this feeling or becoming it

I am not afraid of the next feeling

Kali, cut all ties with souls whose karma I may be receiving

Kali, cut all ties with souls whose karma I may be receiving Kali, cut all ties with souls whose karma I may be receiving Kali, cut all ties with souls whose karma I may be receiving Kali, cut all ties with souls whose karma I may be receiving

When people use my name negatively, positively or think about me sexually, I receive money

What fact about the person outside or around me would make the feeling of my chest holding its breath, soften?

This fear is a fantasy, my reality is safe and boring right now

My pain matters, it does not matter if I am “inconveniencing” someone or “causing them to worry” dude, seriously? You're gonna erase yourself like that?

No, you're literally dumping an emotional voicemail that your parents gave to you, get the fuck off and away from me you sick fuck

I know how to not feel stuck

I do belong

I am an adult

I do belong

I am just as adult as them

just be this moment

I am not the angry, unhappy self

(father)

I am not the hyper analyzing, critical self (mother)

Forgive me

I forgive you

I am not the comfort obsessed self

I am not the one seeking comfort

I can let go, I do not have to safe this thought or solve this feeling

I can forgive my parents, not agree with them, and still be right

Breanne knows that this is my story, and she has hers, she knows where the line is

Narration or neutrality

Yes but there is staged neutrality, not everyone has gotten to the place where the body is okay with feeling what's underneath

I am allowed to be in “narration” if it means owning my truth, feeling liberated and finding more of who i am. I am allowed to point the finger where i picked up emotional imprints from, i am allowed to point the finger, acknowledge i have my own decision to make, and move forward in confidence that i am not stuck and no one is currently taking anything away from me

Guys, just be a safe presence for Riley, that's all he needs

I will not punish myself for doing findom

I am not the lost and unsatisfied self

Be at peace with this moment, it's all going to work out

It is not a “trap” to love you

Riley is safe and there is no real danger

It is safe to have someone take care of me

It is safe to have someone stare at me

I am in love with everyone

Outside noise feels like a moving bug, like you just can't control it

I don't want to play by the rules this fear is telling me

Riley's heart loves hearing lawn mowers

I am not a paypig

I am not a threat to myself

I am not a rapist or a criminal

I am not a sex offender

I am not a pervert

I am a gay man that does financial domination gay roleplay. That is it. I am simply applying to be a car salesman. And that is my next intention / job. There is nothing more to this feeling, there is no deeper meaning to this feeling, there is a center to be found despite how dragged out this feeling feels

Peace is more returning

I can always rebuild

This inconvenience will bring me more peace

This is not the worst news for my mental health, I will not lose my center from this

I am remembering to use sound to regulate

I am not fighting this sound

This sound is not taking anything away from me

This sound not stealing anything from me

I am sorry for being disrespectful

Riley is safe and he is just running from the fear of feeling danger

I am doing my best to live in truth

I will not take these men's money anymore, I am safe

I am not a financial dom robbing men, I am a helpful, funny car salesman that people love

I am not special, I am likable, but I am not special

This is memory emotional flood, not reality

I am not in trouble for influencing men to send money and do drugs

I am not in trouble for speaking about men doing drugs and sending me money

This is a real fear response to a fake fear

I am not in trouble for encouraging gay men to relapse and send me money

Kali, I am ready for my first A.I Findom client

Kali, I am ready to start attracting more of the things that I actually do want

I am one with this moment

No more rushing

No more needing

My heart is safe to trust

Today, everything in my world will respond differently to me than it has ever before, because when I slept—all momentum subsided, and now that I'm awake, I'm taking care to focus in ways that will allow my receptive mode

Spirit, bring me to the people who are relevant for my healing this month that don't make my body contract

Spirit, bring me to paypigs only with good intentions and high transactions

There is a point in re-parenting and re-patterning with new people - I can learn to trust again - it is not a lost cause to trust again

I'm sorry

Forgive me

I'm sorry

Forgive me

Kali, I am ready to face the hidden beliefs, the hidden agreements that are keeping me in a time space reality that I do not ultimately want

Kali, I want to love my partner that much that I want them to have a human-chemical emotional (natural release) experience with another man

Kali, I am ready to make $50,000 with A.I findom in the next 24 hours

I am no longer taking shallow peoples opinion into the reality show, they don't even have the capacity, it's a skill, so why bother listening to the them? Because they're the loudest? So what, they'll just help you get more traction

Yeshua

I am no longer seeing myself through other peoples fear.

Kali, take care of Bella however you see fit

I am noticing what I am getting stage fright for recording a video

I am not doomed to anyone's perspective of me

There are no eyeballs looking at me

Create an app that instructs people to dance like just dance 2 did

Thank you spirit for showing me how to let go of heaviness in the “front” (chest)

You are acting like you committed a crime to your parents Riley oh my gosh…that's how you felt! Tough shit! Maybe don't raised scared children!!!!

You do not owe anyone access to you

Deeper observer I would love guidance on this

What is they are not lower entities or deep down against you or draining your energy, what if they're not going to betray you like other others have and this is just genuinely how scary love feels?

My intuition guides me on what business to make

Use your discernment

Inner being is saying: “Take your attention away from it and it and it will no longer exist as a vibrational factor in your experience”

Purity isn't the goal, practicality with intention is

What would it look like to shake hands with this feeling?

What would it feel like to shake hands with this feeling?

My skin is happy healthy and glowing

When I feel the undercurrent, I just laugh, and focus on something else

You know who you are

I am capable of sitting in this physical feeling, but I am not this feeling

I am a tree

I am still

Life gets happier the more I remember to breath

You always get off social media in Julys

Your 7 year cycle is over. It is about to get that good.

You don't need to apologize and loop, just acknowledge

The sub really does allow the Dom a stage to be great

I am not inherently guilty

God is not “just mad” at every decision/desire of mine

“It feels like your heart involuntarily tunes into their station”

I know I'm bigger than whatever you're narrating me as (to TikTok comments)

Why is their disgust louder than my peace?

You touch people's greatness wound, whatever they say to you is what they say to themselves

Satan, I am ready to treat and be treated as an equal

My spirit does not deserve to be slaughtered

Thank you Kali for protecting me from all financial troubles

“You cannot have high expectations”

Cats show up on important pings of someone being in tune with their dharma

Humiliation transcends social installed shame, it absolutely is a form of shadow work and ego alchemy

Who is the one animating this form?

What is it that wants to manifest through this form?

“so attached to the outcome, that you think it's more important than the present moment”

“Does this person really want to deceive me?”

“at what point would you stop pointing the finger at your dad?” Answer: when I have money again and don't live in anxiety/apathy

What rejection feels like: forced into being an ant or “your essence is wrongl

“ I feel like if I don't have some graduation from this unethical character that God is going to take my physical legs away” - solution just start practicing gratitude for your legs every fucking day

If this stabbing anxiety was given a pillow instead of a knife, what would you say to it to make it want to put down the knife?

Ask the anxiety, the story, can we be friends?

There is nothing important to think about right now

I have harmed men in past, and that's okay

If your body is gonna drop depression with loud sounds, then let's do it. Let's go all the way.

“That's not real. I don't want anything to do with that” —say that to all dark, intrusive looping beliefs or fears or doubts

“Nope, this is yours” -when in a conversation that someone tries to cleverly dump

What is this teaching me?

Arguing with “them” is like arguing with a thief

I will not be thinking about this in 5 minutes

You do not get to invalidate me

You are a lower spirit designed to tug at my wounds, you are not given any more attention

They're still trying to brainwash me that I did something wrong with findom, but it won't work, they aren't capable of overpowering me

You won't bring me to your level, it won't work!

I am feeling joy

I am feeling safe in this body

I am feeling okay with men fucking me blindefolded

I am feeling good about the men I allow into the house

I am remembering to ground with trees before and after

I am feeling happy about getting men's penis to cum with my hole

I am okay with asking them to keep popper fumes away from my face

There is nothing to clear, there is only stillness, or noise, to focus on

“I let my mind spin because I am not these thoughts, I am not these thoughts about these thoughts, I am okay with sitting in this feeling, but I am I not this feeling, I am not even this body”

Someone said 15 likes is not enough enough, but imagine 15 people whooping your ass

They cannot hurt me with their mind”

I do not have to believe that my best days are behind

Name people as colors, spinning colors, or changing colors

“Your rapid eyeballs are making me feel like I have to keep checking on you” -hypervigilance in a nutshell

What agenda is this narrative seeking? Answer: not belonging, seeking how to achieve stability again

I can recognize when people are just operating from a dirty slate and taking shit out on a clean mirror

They are using dark to preach the light

I am not running out of time

Malicious block—- greater than take a pause

There is a sacred rage part to an empathy journey when you a part of your brain network shifts from cosplaying as people's potential offense, to actually getting deeper about what this persons needs actually are, and actually, finally, being able to feel the curiosity at a body level, not just a mind level—and actually be able to hold it and stay there and not slip into panic and shutdown

New Human Philosophy:

What's the temperature of their surveillance camera?

Can you answer in colors instead of emotions?

This is just a color that my brain is looping and obsessing over, I do not actually care

I am not someone who scams people

I am not going be controlled by a feeling

I am not controlled by passing feelings

I am safe in my own body

Yes, Riley, you are safe in your own body

Anything that you think is annoying or wouldn't go viral because of whatever, like be it on screen TikTok captions staying on there too long or whatever you think it is that is annoying, whatever is branded as annoying completely flip it that's the viral magic

Sip inhale from chest make O with lips like you're breathing through your mouth, and then do the “uehhhhhh” say exhale, like, that noise

You never know what people do in the dark

My cells are whole and able to heal themselves

Inhale light and peace through your crown

Pet yourself when you get triggered

When you get a hate comment, literally just been envision choking them for 10 seconds that's how you discharge

What does it matter if they bark?

Lift eyebrow at people

“Don't be scared Riley! you did the right thing, you made the right choice”

“You are already a winner just by telling your truth”

“I'm not shy to ask people uncomfortable questions because, that's where the greatness comes from”

“You don't get to choose how people react to being in pain”

You give off a natural, “salt of the earth” energy

Stop attending your own private concert of “I'm bad unreedeemable and Awful all the time!! It's not true and it's optional!! Notice this as a background track, nothing more, just change stations

You act like a thought or belief can stay intact forever or as if an irrational thought will just haunt you for life

I did not witness a suicide

I am not responsible for anyone's death

you just cleared major karma!!!

Is everyone else a god and I'm just some dumb slave?

Do I need them to like me being fond of myself for my self love to be real? Do I need them to approve of my self love for it to be real or for it to be allowed?

You're afraid of one internet comment because you're afraid it will lead to a mob, influence the rest and cause an even bigger social exile

What I heard “why do you move like that?” “Why do you do it like that?” “Hmmm, yeah something is wrong with you and we all see it but you're deficient and off”

I forgive you riley

Self forgiveness is always the answer

I forgive my brain for playing angry god and dead man spirit following you

‼️‼️‼️‼️I forgive you Riley for thinking someone is breaking in‼️‼️‼️‼️

I forgive you Riley for telling men their doomed to addiction

I forgive you dogs for barking

I forgive you dogs

Dogs barking does not dysregulate me

You know you did not kill anyone, you know you're just looping on what sound you potentially heard. Even though deep down, you know it didn't. It wasn't that you would've known if it was an actual gunshot it was just something that sounded like a Russell.

I have the power to make men get sober

This is just a new thing for my brain to loop and obsess over, I do not care

If the only reason you ruminate is because of a thought that says “what if” then there's your answer, you only suffer when thoughts come

Riley does not have any karmic debts he has to pay for

I no longer have debts I have to pay for

Cause who knows, what if it's helping you, what if you literally just needed to mis-hear something temporarily to address a deeper root. Let yourself spin on it! You know you didn't kill anyone and definitely are not responsible, doesn't even actually make sense

I am not letting A.T.R light up my body and spin survival lies or uncertainty on noises

You'll spin out on this for a sec and then it will literally just pass, it's literally just a vibration

“They're not barking at me”

Literally when meditating today, the deepest and longest I've gotten into a meditation put my hands in my pants on my thighs, and there was a threshold point when I was going to pull out and I said no go deeper, there's more here, I said there's more fun in here and it certainly was right

I am not someone who has to brace for impact for what I may feel in my body

I know that when I step to my right my body will begin to accept that my noise radius does not go as far as I think it does. And I'm not upsetting as much people as I think I am

I that as I keep tapping here my body begins to be curious and accept that I am worth more and make more money the more I express myself

I know that as I continue to tap here, my brain knows that blaming myself isn't helping

fuzzybreeze688

You're not behind you're in transition and this is what transition feels like

Remember the grass analogy, you were just laying at your charging stop in Baker city and you looked at two strands of grass and one at the top turned brown at the top and the other one didn't and I looked it in a way of it can feel like you're on the road the same road for the longest time and then it can just shift and it looked like those were my two options go back to Texas and stay on a road that feels like it's about a shift or go to the timeline board it actually will

Plank daily

Moo daily

Lay eye level with grass daily, go into rabbit, past life regression

Round rock high school, Walmart, parents projecting, dumb, they thought you were a criminal, you were not a criminal, repeated every day. I am not a criminal. You know it, but continuously tell it to the universe

Why is everyone so afraid of having a good time, yell “good time!!”

Smile and wink to cars behind you

Pray to Orion

Fuck you Veronica for shaming me for breaking a stupid phone when I literally almost lost my life that day you fucking insensitive bitch

I refuse to judge myself from y'all's perspective because I don't want y'alls shitty ass nervous system

There is no thought that can drop Riley's mood

For every person who uses my name, good or bad, I will receive more opportunities for income

I thrive on connection to source

Coherent heart connection

Pray for my haters, not attack

Envision throwing a water balloon on haters

I pray they find a deeper connection with you source

I am not stupid

People aren't really ever responding to you, they're responding to a reflection of their insecurities. But it's not yours. It's never you it was never you.

I am remembering to catch my inner critic

Riley, do you know your zodiac chart you know you have it easier than others you know you have opportunities the others will never have because of your ability to speak to people, stop playing small go to Canada next

Riley is safe. No one is going to attack him for being weird.

Is texting too high stakes?

Get out of linear thinking: Eyes closed standing sky dive flaunt arms bent down and bent back

Stella has taught me so much about myself. Seriously. I am 28 and in, in astrology they would call the “dark knight of the soul”. I personally lean to Jesus, but I'm a student of life so I dabble and study through all different kinds of viewpoints. Anywho. Animals have a stillness and non judgment that allows you a very different image of yourself vs with humans. No distortion or absorption I like to say.

Humans are nothing more than client practices. It is not an earning of my belonging or my worth. It is not a reward system of stacked compliments. I am pure and connected.

Actually, You're allowed to change your mind as much as you want

just promote your of on your tiktok Riley!!!!

Riley is safe, his brain is just glitching, airplanes can't touch him

I am channeling a gay ancestor, a positive protector to help me go viral on tiktok. Like, built a strong strong core following, inside humor, massive support, massive activity, findom + zebruhs x 10

“Why are you talking to me like I'm in trouble?”

I'm sick of people talking to me like I'm in trouble or I'm stupid

I have not. I'm a bit of a shut in these days for the most part. I struggle with P.T.S.D so unfortunately my nervous system doesn't really behave with external reality the way it use to.

Do you think there's actually a threat or are you just in an episode still spinning

My confidence is a physical

My mind is gold, my mind is worth millions

I am the commander of every cell in this body

My posture is the posture of a man who already won

My resolve is a physical sensation in my chest

My strength is a fact

I am capable of sitting with the sensation until it leaves

I am allowed to outlast the craving

My body knows how to sit still and be powerful, I am allowed to sit still and be powerful

I am capable of outgrowing the need to smoke

I am allowed to be the most confident person on this road

No one is stopping me from being the man I want to be

No one is stopping me from having a peaceful night, no one wants to stop me from having a peaceful night

My body is strong and it is doing exactly what I tell it to

I am allowed to be in control of my own body

No one wants to stop me from being present

No one wants to stop me from being clearheaded

No one wants to stop me from breathing deeply

I am capable of navigating my own internal sensations not

I am not draining people's energy

No one wants to see me struggle

Your brain is not personal, it's survival

Notice when your brain is literally just looping “watch out watch out”

No one is stopping me from finishing this strong

I already won because I am the one who decides how this night feels

I forgive you Riley for apologizing for being yourself

I am not homeless

I am not a drug addict

I am not a junkie

I am inspiring

I am not a criminal

I am a police officer

I am a testimony of the human spirit

Why would I be being followed right now?

Why would anyone be stalking me right now?

moo

My thoughts are valuable

People are noticing my power and they want to support it

I am seeing the world that is full of kindness and wins

I am noticing that my success makes other people happy

Every person I walked past is silently hoping I have a good day

No one is competing with me, they are all cheering for me

I keep finding people who want to share their secrets with me

People are happy to open doors for me just because they like my energy

I am seeing ways to grow my wealth in the most basic interactions

People are giving me the answers. I need to stay free and successful.

It feels like I have a giant team of supporters everywhere I go

I am finding that life is effortless when I let others support me

Make Reeves fart noises when a car is coming up fast behind you

You don't need to get back at them, that's their karma, they're gonna do that to 20 other people

I am allowed to not like people, I am allowed to have an opinion, I'm allowed to talk shit about people, I am allowed to stand up for myself, I do not have to be love and light towards everyone. I need to wake the fuck up and respect myself more.

narrative coaching tiktok account (life coach)

I need to be in a position where people are coming to me to have a good time like that needs to be the background that needs to be the theme already established

There is always an “Oh!” of relief within the feeling of building panic

Other people's pupils dilating is an involuntary reflex, not a character judgment.

Their gaze is like a laser pointer on a wall—it doesn't leave a mark.

Where does your body feel "weightless" when you read a job description?

If your unique facial micro-movements were high-value data points for a creative director?

If your voice was a key that unlocked a door worth $5,000 this week, which "room" would you walk into first?

What if your facial expressions aren't "leaking" trauma, but are actually high-value data points for a creative director?

You're being "watched" the same way a park bench is being watched.

Being targeted requires a motive, and you're way too boring to a stranger for that.

Most people perceive you with the same intensity they use to check if a light is green.

If you were the "Oracle" of your own career, which path would you point to?

If this were a conspiracy, the "agents" would be much better at blending in.

If your voice was a "Skeleton Key," which industry's "back door" would you walk through first?

Nobody is keeping a scoreboard of your awkward moments; they're too busy with their own.

Being perceived is just the 3.D version of "Read Receipts."

Santa Fe after Seattle

Bold + self depreciation (TikTok viral)

Do me and Breanne have a crazy thing with perception because we think we're not boring. We think we're crazy. We think people are seeing us at our highest peak at all times?

I am not being trapped

Your decisions don't have to have so much pressure, it's not high stakes like that Dr

I am not someone who needs to fix their body

I am someone who believes everything works out for them

I am not these thoughts, I am not even this body

Parents relax because they have to dominate you to keep you in line, if you become too exuberant about things and it triggers them

(Wonder why they made me get rid of kylie, afraid your son was going to finally actually regulate?)

I am away from anyone I have to perform for

The time, the turnaround time from apathy disassociative and not able to think of any way to break out, I'm always surprised at how short that window can be when I do just get still enough

I am not someone who prioritizes another's perspective over my own

You and Dan round 3 (how your parents saw you all along) when he was glitching and you came in to nurture

I am allowed to smoke weed

There's no dog attacking you, there's no invisible harmful electric rays, there's no network tower is messing with your brain waves, and there's no bad spirits attached to you or around in the land watching you, so what's really the problem then?

You're too boring to be targeted right now seriously what would they have to do with

This is just the process of developing trust, you don't need to run away(dog)

I am ready to wake up. I am finding out how to wake up. I am seeing how to wake up. I am understanding how to wake up.

I am accessing infinite realities

Don't focus on the symptoms, just get a bigger vision

I am not going to hangout if it's going to be mindless and unconscious and phones out, I'm too autistic for that I need a focal point and actual reason to be together

What can I learn from this feeling?

Say “you little fucker!!” out loud when you vent bc

Riley is held

Riley has resources

Riley is guided

I will open my own hotel one day

Do you really have to prove that you won't attack someone?

Talk to the strangers nearby in your head

Side eye

Headphones on speak out loud

Say “come and get me” “come and find me”

“Reject me then”

They love your presence but it also pains them

im not here to appease your small mind

“You need to breath”

I am thinking of a funny and helpful caption

It's possible that an interaction can be freeing us both from trauma - cycle ending - connection ending

I can look at this car behind me and feel safe

Your parents made you believe it wasnt safe to know yourself in this world just because they don't know themself

What am I trouble for?

You're way too funny to be having to be faking scenarios for attention - lean into just being a dancer with funny opinions

“I'm still learning here”

You can't live in fear when you're in gratitude

You're just making a story for your hypervigilance

Stop punishing yourself with vibrational law

Someone can love me and not be trying to control me

Someone can love me and not abandon me

Someone can love me and not be my enemy

Someone can love me and not be evil

Someone can love me and not be lying

Riley can be himself and not be in trouble

Its possible someone is behind me and not trapping me

This feeling is not contaminating me

I don't hang out with anyone that pisses on my magic

Riley is safe there is nothing attacking his body

Breath is the steering wheel, sensation is view

Just simply say, “paranoia thought”

I am finding people who want to help me do great

I can be curious about why a dog barking at me causes me to go into despair

I forgive you Riley for trying to lure men into paying you

“I want to be dead to everyone that's known me”

Riley's subconscious no longer carries shame

I am not using other living beings

Yes, Riley is safe to love these dogs even when they're barking

Thumb to roof of mouth, breath of fire, hand on belly

When i step to my right, i know that im safe no matter how much noise the neighbors make

I am constantly finding exciting way

I know that the more i tap my toe on the floor, the more safe I begin to feel

I know that the more i tap my foot on the floor, the feeling of trust grows bigger for every living being in this house

The more I remember to breath the more safe i feel

I am using my voice to heal people, not trap them

I am using my voice to heal people

Why being in a career where your feared and not even liked

It is safe to love this dog

Everything is connected, it's just your brain swinging on vines of disconnection in separation

It is safe to love will

quick upload a video of you doing better right now and try not to look like an absolute joke. You're a useless pig. You lick my feet in past and current lives. What makes you think you can even look at me?

Hard work is a lie

Fear is optional

I don't need to teach, I can just be your friend, I don't need to be afraid I can just accept that I'm accepted.

No thank you I forgive you, I'm allowed to use humor in dark areas of someone's emotions

The truth will set you free

I can anything look or feel good, it's a level of magnetism that is uncanny

I am not a heart breaker

Apply at apartment complex in Austin Texas

I do deserve love

Yes, Riley is safe to love this dog

Yes, this feeling will pass too

Yes, you can trust that this feeling will pass

Yes, Riley, we love you, so dearly

Yes, Riley, the abundance you felt June and July 2021 will come back stronger, deeper, more intense, more fun and more beautiful

Yes, Riley, it is safe to affirm this

Yes, Riley, you are so so beautiful

I am channeling a positive gay extraterrestrial to help me

What do you really want?

I want to have the nervous system, confidence and charisma and the ability to drink and metabolize alcohol and enjoy life the way I did in June 2021-December 2021

Yes, Riley, you can trust that these fleeting thoughts are all just gonna pass

Yes, you can just say what you want to happen and it will

Yes, you will be protected physically and emotionally from this point forward

Yes, it literally is like the matrix, in a way, but yes. That's a solid framework. Why do you think we gave that to y'all?

You need to speak to your friends like you two were on a spaceship together a small spacecraft you have to say what you think

How do you balance the scales of the idea of karma without it being waking life perpetual guilt state, and something that's more so just you simply being extra extraordinary and admitting that what does a human's waking life behavior have to look like to naturally emit that for your natural baseline to emit something that is one could say inherently naturally karma clearing just the mirror existence. If I'm being honest, I personally think my divine essence already carries that so I guess I'm asking I guess what am I asking? Am I asking to upgrade my divine essence isn't that ironic I scolded that so much saying fuck that I don't care about it but that's actually what I do care about so much but I care about it so much that it pains me that much.

Just, not anticipate, but know that comments have a negative “splat” to them so just prep your nervous system prior lean into a whimsical or a conscious bracing edge. We already know it's like this is gonna happen but I wonder if there's a middle path between those like what is a what is a more fluid decision

I am channeling a gay positive extraterrestrial to help me make my behavior and waking life decisions, more fluid, a.k.a. the highest path

You move people even when you're literally so depressed and despair and apathetic you move people people feel your field. Your brain just has a filter mechanism to find the negative look at how much positive there is you literally can like change someone's life in a day, someone could be stuck for 10 years and you could come in and change all of that stop acting like that's not real stop acting like you're making that aspect up just because you're in a mood seriously you're doing such a disservice to yourself by constantly toggling and thinking that that's not interwoven into your literal essence

Yes, Riley, you are safe to post on Instagram

Yes, Riley, you do help people with a perspective. That is absolutely why you're here. Don't you dare deny people that gift of yours

, Yes, Riley, it is safe to channel any deity consciousness biblical figure you were right on the money with that with believing that they are all the same divine tapestry just a different font and I can't believe that that's become a part of your amygdala alarm system to some aspect, it seems at least there's the words I use, but I am open and willing to hear a new framework from my gay positive extra terrestrial life helper

I am not being talked down to

Keep that video up on Instagram, Riley, let them watch and let the lower spirits burn. You're not me on the slaughter you're literally you're literally a trap for them actually now hold on. I'm not a trap. I am literally a I'm a frequency and that's it and I don't know why I believe that anyone's perception of me has power over me I am not of the belief that people's perception of me has power over me. I am not of the belief that people's perception of me has power over me. I am not of the belief that people's percept

I am not of the belief that people's perception of me has power over me. I am not of the belief that people's perception of me has power over me. I am not of the belief that people's perception of me has power over me. I am not of the belief that people's perception of me has power over me. I am not of the belief that people's perception of me as power over.

You were a lower entity because you do not come at me like that

Shame is survival, it's not personal, it's not prophecy. It's and it's likely not even yours.

you dont get to come in an Trump reality

no one is here to Trump my reality

I see it now source, yes, Riley sees how he did this in findom

You just cleared karma

Congratulations

I'm on the next

level

I am cool as shit and you never fucking actually fully saw Veronica. You saw a face shit so fuck you for even looking at me like I'm crazy or cookie or something's wrong with me. Nothing's wrong with me. Somethings wrong with you. Bitch something is wrong with you Veronica. That's the fucking problem. I'm a mirror you stupid bitch you fucking hoe.

Yeah, I don't believe people who speak definites though

I am not afraid of Instagram I am not afraid of Instagram. I am not afraid of Instagram. I am not afraid to post on Instagram. I am not afraid to post on Instagram. I am not afraid to be seen on Instagram. I am not afraid to be seen on Instagram I am not afraid to be seen on Instagram. I am not afraid to be seen on Instagram. I am not afraid to be seen on Instagram. I am not afraid to be seen on Instagram. I am not afraid to be seen on Instagram I am not in trouble when I post on Instagram. I am not in trouble when I post on Instagram. I am not in trouble when I post on Instagram. I am not in trouble when I post on Instagram I am not going to jail when I post on Instagram I am not going to jail when I post on Instagram. I am not going to jail when I post on Instagram. I am not going to jail when I post on Instagram. I am not going to jail when I post on Instagram, I am not going to jail when I post an Instagram. I am not being bullied when I post on Instagram. I am not being bullied when I post on Instagram. I'm not being bullied when I post on Instagram I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I posted on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram, I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram. I am not being shamed when I post on Instagram I am not being stalked. I am not being stalked. I am not being stalked.

I am not being stalked. I am not being stalked. I am not being stalked.

I am not being stalked. I am not being stalked. I am not being stalked, I am not being stalked.

I am not being stalked. I am not being stalked. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source.

I'm sending all evil eye back to its original source. I'm sending all evil eye back to its original source I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source.

I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original Source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source, I am sending all evil eye back to its original source.

I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source, I am sending all evil eye back to its original source.

I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I am sending all evil eye back to its original source I am sending all evil eye back to its original source.

I am sending all evil eye back to its original source. I'm sending all evil eye back to its

I do not have to accept negativity. I do not have to accept negativity. I do not have to accept negativity.

I can accept positivity. Only I can accept positivity. Only I can set a boundary why I accept positivity only I can set a boundary where I tolerate positivity only I can set a boundary where I only tolerate positivity and constructive criticism.

I can accept a boundary where I only accept positive positivity or constructive feedback. I am setting a boundary where I only accept positive feedback. No, I am setting a boundary where I am only accepting positivity or constructive feedback.

I am setting a boundary where I am accepting only positivity or constructive feedback. I am setting a boundary where I am accepting only positivity and constructive feedback. I am setting a boundary where I am only accepting positivity and constructive feedback.

I am setting a boundary where I accept only positivity and constructive feedback. I am setting a boundary where I am only accepting positivity and constructive feedback. I am setting a boundary where I accept only positivity and construct

I am the one I am the one. I am the one. I am the one. I am the one. I am the one. I am the one. I am the one I am. I am the one. I am the one. I am the one the one I am the one I.

Yes Riley, you're correct, this feeling will not take you over

Somatic technique, draw a swirl, a spiral up above your head, move with it

I am safe, the dogs are not signaling the police

I am letting go of the need to control emotions that come up

Say it everyday: “Everything I Want works out

The energy I've held that isn't mine is currently on its way back to its owner

“The clinging to him is already on its way out”

“The wanting is currently leaving my body”

“Oh no Oh no”——> “Oh yes, oh yesss”

“Oh here goes my brain playing spirit and pretending to know who it's divine counter part is”

Oh here goes my brain playing Angry team Jesus

I want to banish shame about my life path, and call in clarity

Fleebag

Oh here's the brain going fear of having the mic too long

What is this feeling trying to become?

Men just want to give me money all the time

I am not weird or broke or overdramatic for feeling this way

You are not stupid. I believe you. This is normal. And you can let this go now.

Lay on stomach, Push on perinium and breath

I don't have to solve this feeling, I don't have to scream at these people

Always do findom space in car away from house if you do

I am allowed to engage in findom in meantime without using fear shame or guilt tactic

God is not mad at me

God is not punishing me

God is not withholding healing from me

I don't need to solve this feeling and I don't need to chase a feeling

“There's more I can do” -anxiety dressed up as productivity

“You're not behind. You're not stuck. You're just in the part of the threshold that feels like nothing is happening because the visible results haven't caught up to the internal shift yet.

That gap is uncomfortable. ‼️But it's not a problem to solve.“‼️

I forgive all thoughts that say porn is evil bad and off track

They will literally look at you like you're disgusting and don't belong until you're trending and people are on a wagon so. It doesn't really matter what their initial reaction is is because they'll just dick ride the train regardless so that's my bone to pick is there is an empathy switch. There is a tolerant switch. They just can't turn it on unless it's popular or unless it's blank.

“Don't let your primitive brain spook you. It's very good at doing that at times”

I challenged my brain to get me hired at one of the biggest gay porn agencies

I am not evil, I am a child of Christ

You are an earth angel and everyone sees it

If you can't treat the animal kingdom right, you will not treat your own body right (and you have to speak to your human body literally the same way)

Co-creative process with god

“The new you is solidified, even if you dip back a little bit, you know where home is. Your spiritual G.P.S has been upgrade”—-the cycle of not feeling at home on earth is over—you've got major blessings on the way, for everything you have done—-this is a celebration, this is a portal—you are Timeline Jumping!!! you are!!! Time to step into the cycle of being seen

you are meant to be blessed!!!

you are meant to be Blessed!!!

Appreciating little things around us attracts blessings, starts a domino effect

you are about to Receive!! you dont have to do anything! Love Offers! Money Offers! People are Coming to you Offering you Things

God is inspiring others to find you and Give to you - why? - because you are an inspiration. Because you have come home to god.

You are an empath

People who hurt you never saw your light, what's worse is when they did see your light and still hurt you

Maybe this is my moment

They'll get with the times soon Riley (bridge builder)

I am patient

I am accepting this

I am allowing this

I am receiving gifts from people

I am receiving money from people

Riley is safe, that truck is not his father, I believe Riley, he's safe to trust this will pass

This is an old feeling, this will pass

Nothing in this room is responsible for the anxiety I feel

This is not threat waiting outside for me

What if there is no threat waiting outside for me

I do not have to feel inferior to god

I do not have to be afraid of god

What if there's only potential friends outside

I am not being followed by my dad

Just simply yell “can yall Shut the fuck up out There

Or, simply have a theoretical, calm conversation with them…O.M.G, remember how well that worked in Honolulu???

Listen to coqui frogs before bed

I am releasing all thoughts that act against Riley

I am releasing all

I am just going to give suggestions, not play therapist, not play god

you wont be Able to Transmute it if you dont Look it Straight in the Face

They cant see me Because They cant Even see Themselves

They don't get it and I'm talking about it like it's normal, that's why you feel crazy me to myself just now in the mirror on May 20 Santa Fe, New Mexico, seven grassland Trail that one's a little

Can't live in fear when you're living in gratitude

My frequency is fucking healing for people

I can literally pull people out of their dark knight of the soul - (what I literally did for Gabe)

That sunny external world is also just waiting for you to move in it. Not fix everything. Not have it figured out. Just move. One application. One first day. One broadcast in a new room.

im Vibrating in Such Truth They Think im on Drugs! Thank you Jesus!! hahlelooia

I dont Give A F*** if NICKI MINAJ is the Green Goblin I.D.G.A.F im playin sum Hot Girl Summer Ayyyyee

I do not know better than people

There is nothing wrong with how I look, it is safe to be seen, I have no shame about how I look

I am safe to be seen

I am safe to be heard

I am a genius

I am someone who asks for help and gets help

I am not being gone after

I am not being targeted

I am more than my physical body

My brain is playing tricks, this moment is perfect, I am perfect

Only do ocular resets with A.S.M.R!!

Command the waves instead of riding the waves

Riley's brain is seeing a false threat, Riley can be curious about if there's real danger or not

I am not someone who takes people's identities

I am not someone who evades taxes

Buy wired headphones

Everything I believed up to this point is optional

I am not “always invalid”

There are no bad men outside my car

No one outside my car is suspicious of me

I am not being punished

Riley is safe this feeling is normal

Riley is safe he can let this feeling build up

Black dress shirt and red tie

Stick her hand out the window on one lane roads to regulate

You don't have to fight them, just send love to someone else, even if you feel the pull to spiral, even if you feel the rage, pulling you, just show love to other others with a simple hand heart that can do more than push, pushing against it

Just be the wave, don't try to control the wave (meditating)

You need to look at yourself in your car make up mirror 20 minutes in the morning and 20 minutes before bed

What did I hear when I was critiqued? “You're worthless you're an idiot. You're dumb at everything you do.” And “ i'm better than you and this would be easy for me” “ you're a failure when you try” “you don't deserve to have fun”

Ask A.I to ask you if this feeling was a blank in 50 different ways

When you're feeling a heavy emotion, just say to yourself “be the wave”

Is the car behind me really a bully or are they just a person on an occupied road?

Khechari mudra from now on in meditation, and nasal breath, feel the air, pulling in as you do it

You really should take out a loan and pay off your credit because that way you won't get dinged any further

Archangel Michael, can you connect me with someone who can help clear up my financial situation

Riley, do you really need to feel ashamed because someone else is incoherent or stupid?

Play with your hands like look through your hands like goggle eyes look through the Lady Gaga. People look through the cracks of your fingers.

Christopher Columbus had to be brave and travel, do you think you think that courage felt good?

I'm in charge of my intention, not their interpretation

Would you repeat your sovereignty mantras you need to make a cocky smirk squint a little and point at yourself obsessively and remember leaning into conviction

When was a time you felt in trouble for making eye contact

Riley is safe, he's not being excluded

Riley is safe, people are not watching everything he does

Riley does not have to criticize himself constantly

No one is outside Riley's car

Nothing is caving in on him

Riley is safe, nothing bad is about to happen

Go deeper into this

Wave that people on the road make friends on the road

Riley is safe

WiFi is not making him depressed

Wifi is not making him anxious

Riley is safe, the law is not spying on him

Riley is safe to play here

Apply

The two arks of what I project “they are going to humiliate me - or - “they are going to Absolutely love me”

I am not re-enacting painful memories

I am receiving creative inspiration

Intentionally walk, slower, like slower, Riley

How does it always feel like everyone is trying to invade my energy?

I have no shame

I have no guilt

I have no regrets

People are jealous because they see me and instantly know “he's someone” so fucking Own it!!! Strut When you Walk. Look at People like theyre Background Characters. be What youre Afraid to be.

I do not accept hateful education

“This feeling is already walking away”

“Notice your struggle without resisting”

Always E.F.T tap daily

We should all love ourselves cause we have to live with ourselves so I can't believe that that's discouraged. That's the stupidest thing that's my problem. That's my bone to pick with this planet is love is in in a way it feels discouraged. You can say whatever they want about ad advertisement, but there is such a greater force through love is discouraged on this planet. That's what I'm here to do right to be a pioneer and whatever way that looks like frustrated because I feel like I work my ass off and I am grateful and I am blessed and I just made so much fucking money but man God bless weed let's just

Just say thank you God over and over and over like sometimes that's literally all you have to do but you have to mean it so think about something that can make you mean it when you say it

I said out loud just now I deserve that effing money more than anything talking about my Twitter. Space I just finished.

If God is experiencing himself through you, why wouldn't he be wanting you to deconstruct, gender norms, norms of any sort of anything? Why would you for a second question? If anything you're doing is wrong why would you for a second even question if anything you're going through is nothing more than the stripping away of the identification of whatever role you got caught up in in that, but there are different forms of this. That is all this is is the laminal space the transitory fleeting this of this walk-through of this bridge you're a bridge builder you're always supported as a bridge builder so even in your darkest moment, you need to know that you still are supported as a bridge builder.

The videos that you just know we're gonna be huge. Remember that they are timeless and remember that time takes time so just remember that like no it's ok. It's gonna work out. They're sleeper hits. You have to be ok with that you ask yourself what would it feel like to be ok with this being a sleeper head? You have to like figure out a way to visualize and step into that.

Just thinking about the retirement Home job my brain just thought to myself right now. I said that would be a complete terrible absorption. That'll be terrible. No wonder they're hitting me out because I'm a fucking literal earth angel and I just said yeah Riley no wonder that's why you have been on to make money that's you literally got the biggest blessing if that's like actually actually the biggest blessing that's kind of iconic. It's insane. How much work I'm having to go through that without right now God bless marijuana cause I'm actually able to get a clear signal on all of this and get still enough. Of course you could steal us after you've screamed it all out

Riley is safe when cars go slow around him

Riley is safe Riley is not being pushed

Talk

I am suffering because I'm taking the role seriously

I am not bad for having sex

I am letting go

From — greater than this is making me depressed to —-> it's a beautiful thing

Thank you oneness

Drop the mask

I feel isolated by default

I am just someone who needs praise and needs to feel admired first before I can be normal with someone

I am allowing

Notice when someone is selling urgency

Riley has nothing to look out for, no one around him is a problem

Don't feed the monkey mind

I am not being rushed

Eye contact is safe

I am being given love, I am allowed to let go of fear

Mauntra: People love to help me get ahead

I am a pro at finding these best patterns

“I get paid a lot of money for what I love to do”

One “yes” is all it takes to break through, and your determination will push the rest.

I am certain in myself despite fear

“I can believe in myself while feeling doubt”

“I can believe in myself while feeling rejected”

I am waking up to good news

Fear files talking

I am not doing anyone wrong

I am going to get everything I want and more

I am not in debt to anyone

I do not owe anyone back

I am accessing any feeling I want

I am able to feel anything I want

I am not effected by shame

They are not talking to you, they are talking to a version of themself that is free

I don't care about your snarky internet comments, be a real human or you're getting deleted

I am safe, this is just an old memory firing

“The noises outside my door are from loving people, not bad guys, I believe you and you can let this go”

I do not have to hide

I am talented

I am protected

I am able to let go of mean words

I am not rejecting myself for people's comfort

I am shameless

People cannot “see” your emotions - they literally just feel whether you're contracted or expanded

I am forgiven by god

I am forgiven by Jesus

Divine creator, forgive me for using fear shame and guilt for profit. I was foolish, I was afraid, I was desperate for an escape. I know better. I will do better. I will be a messenger of the light, not a messenger of scarcity and fear. And so it is.

You don't need to stop reactions. And you don't need to turn feelings off

There is nothing wrong with making noise

You don't have to solve this feeling, you don't have to fight these people

I am not above people

Dream of dad becoming trans, turning into you, looking exactly like you, mom being pissed, mom not coming to save you, woman in golden being the only one that gets you

I surrender to the crisis, the outcome is handled

I am not these thoughts, I am not even this body

It's just energy shift, it's not vampirism

This feeling is leaving, it's okay

Oh here comes the scripted fears

Oh here comes the scripted programming

“Even though I feel anxiety and dread in my body, I completely and wholly accept myself”

“Tao, turn this rage into gold”

“Tao, turn this rage into something productive”

I am not a technical dancer, I am just a vibe

God is not mad that I'm not submitting, he's patient with my frustration

Dont acknowledge them and see what they do

AWWWW youre Mad I have more Free Will Than you Doggy?

What kind of role prove to my body that there is light all around me?

I am seeing my hard work pay off

Yes, Riley is safe, nothing he is currently feeling can last more than 90 seconds

Spirit, how do I stop getting hijacked by dogs barking? This is so unfair!

I am not breaking trust with living beings

Just Ask Spirit for help: okay, how do I drink again and not want to kill myself?

I am not hoping praying or wanting the odds to be stacked against the men that pay me

You just cleared major karma, congrats

I no longer have to worry about escaping humans

I am not going to explode from the inside, and no noise thing or person outside of me can cause me anxiety

Only give people your Google voice number from this point forward

I am not responsible for how anyone interprets my words

Jesus Christ prevents me from slipping into anger around pets

I am sorry, Riley, I forgive you, Riley

I want to film prank porn that turns into gay sex

Insults someone gave me:

-bootleg of someone else

-predator

Why go on tiktok live when you're just going to be degraded constantly? Why show up in the world when I continue to get dysregulated? Why does my body body get so un-earthed from a comment from strangers online?

Why try anything spirit when someone's just going to knock me down? Why try to find community when danger always tries to find its way to me? When will I feel like I am not perpetually running, spirit? Do you not feel it in my body? The complete shift in mood? Hello spirit?

Drag queen that takes findom money

I am purple light, I am healing

I do not deserve to be treated like shit

I dont Care if you Think Taylor Swift is Cringe

What if manon was never in Katseye. Seriously. Like we all just collectively hallucinated it. That's the new Mandela effect. Start looking back at original performance videos, like hey wait wasn't there literally a black girl in this group? “No dude it's always been 5”

omfg thats A Black Mirror Episode

“You are mirroring their identity offense to survive”

It's not about getting mass favor and aggreance, it's about getting in the energetic place where you're willing to say it in general

What if I made my money anonymous online instead of through an image/face?

dont you Ever Believe What These People Write about you it is Only Saying Everything about them!!

I am going to have $300,000 in my banking app

I am going to have $300,000 in my boa

“I welcome in all levels of support from heaven and earth”

“If something is in the possession of another person, it is also available to you”

“Let go of tension and relax”

“This is your purpose, to be happy, to relax, to live life, to enjoy, to give to share to love to cry. All of it. You are about to go from rags to riche. Your soul wanted to experience all of it”

I am crystal light

That's what it feels like, like I'm an escaped prisoner to my parents. That's all this feels like!!

My parents “grace” feels like a noose

They never knew me because they never dared to look

If source really loved me, why would it call me back to an environment that my body's physically rejects in every category of existence , is the universe that small? There's plenty options to my success that don't involve physically being there anytime soon!

I cannot be bullied I cannot be argued against

I do not have to perform or defend myself

I am not someone who has to perform or defend themself

The cells in my body are receiving 369

Their subconscious found what it was looking for!! So why ever worry if being perceived is a bad thing when They called it into their orbit???

And you have a frequency that a lot of people want to call in that is exactly why you will be famous case closed. It's that simple.

It could take time, but I'm innocent

I am capable of making money without my parents

This isn't me, this is a circling sensation, that I was told to hold onto that. I thought that I was told I needed to judge myself this way to belong, that is a lie this feeling is a lie. I am lovable this feeling is a lie. I am liked this feeling is a lie. I am not disgusting. I am not disgusting.

I am not disgusting. I am not disgusting. I am not shameful I am not shameful I am not shameful I am not shameful I am not shameful I am not. Shameful

I am not looked at like I'm crazy

I am looked at like I'm brilliant

I am seeing a way out of debt

I am seeing a way to feel safe all the time

I am seeing a way to make money without my parents

I am allowed to defend myself

I said just now I said the reality of why I'm going to get every single thing I want in life is because I got introduced to Jesus at a young age in that one to seven year age range of the fat state so that's exactly why I'm going to get everything I want so I can be as mad as I want about that and everything in the areas where they feel like they cross the fence, but they did give me the seed at the end of the day, and I have to be grateful for that so that means love is bigger and higher than fear and I did say earlier that Jesus is the highest and I'm struggling to articulate everything. I just said that I read just now felt just now bu

Why is fear stronger than my awareness of my emotional well being progress in my body?

“$50,000 just hit my account”

“The debate is over; the numbers arrived exactly as I commanded.”

Just notice the boiling anger trying to take over

I am not a bad person and I have more to be grateful for

I'm not going to spiral into pain

I'm not going to be stuck in this feeling forever

No one is going to lecture Riley

You have to fight for your vision

I do not have to obey anyone to stay alive

Being misunderstood is not a failure

Riley does not have to hide here

Riley does not have to feel guilty here

Riley does not have to defend himself here

Riley does not have to pretend to be anyone here

Riley does not have to fight here

Riley does not have to pretend to care here

Riley does not have to be quiet here

Riley is not going to be mocked here

Riley does not have to worry about being wanted

Riley does not have to compliment to win people over

Riley does not have to worry about people questioning him

Riley does not have to overthink any conversations that have happened

Riley is not being secretly listened to

Riley I give you permission to feel what you're afraid of

Riley can breathe into this feeling for it to move

My chest, my head is connected to my chest while drumming chest

I forgive you Riley for not speaking up for yourself

That's what you gotta just say to everything What the fuck Ever

I can always just breath

Can I be in this feeling, find a specific point, without becoming it?

Loud noises does not mean Riley is in danger

This feeling will pass

Damn Nava you're really missed here like I really fucking miss you. It just hit me. I feel like I was guilty when I heard statements like this in past so I'm going to naturally preface that. I hope it doesn't relay that that way at all, but yeah, I just I just get giddy thinking about.

Who am I trying to prove my purity to?

Riley doesn't have to react to bekah

Why do I believe I'm going to stay stuck if I temporarily engage in findom?

Riley cannot force his feelings, Riley can sit in this feeling, Riley is always protected

Bekah is not going to shame Riley

Bekah is not going to attack Riley

It's not a problem until I think about it

I am safe

I am going to be rich

I am allowed to be here

I am feeling love for everyone

I am creative

I am responsible

I am powerful

No one is watching me

No one is behind me

No one is secretly listening

No one can say I'm permanently bad

Riley is not bad

Riley is not being trapped

Riley does not vibrate in fear

Self-condemnation has become so ordinary within human culture

Accept the rehearsal

Wim hof breathwork

Hand on chest and belly

Say in and out

Squint eyes entire time

#2 mouth piece in

Inhale 5

Hold 2

Exhale 5

I invite all good things back to me

Riley does not have to defend himself right now

Riley feels terrified, but he is not being trapped in this moment

Ask A.I to ask me 50 questions to break down emotions deeper than sadness

Riley feels safe when he tells jokes to people

I ams:

I am not stupid

I am a millionaire

I am not a bully

I am not a loser

I am not poor

I am not in trouble

I am not depressed

I am someone who doesn't believe everything I think

I am someone whose heart is safe in this world

I am someone who can observe sensations in their body

I am not someone who exists as people perceive

Ahyeon smashashh face - pouty face

Grounding walk (act like you're walking in sticky mud)

From now on, I only see signs that healing is already here

No one is taking away my freedom

My freedom is not being taken for speaking my truth

My hookup put on my meta glasses and…

No one behind me is more powerful than me (shake foot as a No too)

Passive income Reddit page

I can thrive under demanding conditions

Thank you Guan Yin

What am I afraid I'm being seen as when people see me?

And are they not looking just because I'm looking?

It feels like I'm being cornered when people look at me, it doesn't feel curious, and I don't like that it just defaults to exile

Why do I feel cornered when people look at me?

Even if you feel like a target, you can be the light

Be the light, not the target

Be the light, it's not embarrassing to be the light, it's embarrassing to be an ego that thinks they're separate.

You feel trust in knowing a car isn't going to hit you when you cross the road, what would it take to feel trust that people looking at you is not inherently threatening?

Why do I feel like I'm going to be scolded for being weird? Why do I feel like I deserve to be scolded for being weird do I really deserve do I really think weird people deserve to be scolded?

Never forget people all have double lives and aren't so innocent

❤️❤️❤️!!!!!I am helped by people!!!!!!❤️❤️❤️

“We gotta get you comfortable out There again in stillness so your body will naturally pull to it”

You Thrive on Rotation

There's no one nearby, there's no one coming, your brain is just glitching

I am creative (repeat this everyday)

Stop focusing on thought clean up, focus on belief Install

Does people staring for longer than two seconds have to be inherently dangerous?

Why do I feel like I'm not allowed to get a job that isn't draining, one that's healing and one that's fun?

You gotta make that Sabrina face when you're walking past people the lake be like are they serious face or/like do they not know the punchline face? -this…. Is a release valve

Focus can be neutral. It doesn't have to be seething from other others.

Shell and repel where you can expand and understand

A.k.a.

Shut down out of annoyance or get curious about what it would feel like to compliment just one stranger?

Why is it so hard to find people that run on fun?

What would I need to do to put myself in a situation where I'm in abundance of community of people who are run on fun?

The feeling might be bigger, but no one's going to come after you

How do I turn people focus on me into more love?

I am not at risk for re-traumatization

How can I turn this attention on me into more love?

I am allowed to grieve what I've lost

A real love connection is finding me

Is it possible to permanently feel safe in your body?

Join a runners clubs Immediately when you get to seattle

Say OOOOO OOOO like youre A Curious Woman Moaning (think bre tone)

My brain doesn't have to simulate angry person outside the door right now

New rule: I can only eat out if I'm with people

There is an alter reality to your fearful assumption

Think of the bubble buddy bathroom scene

Visualize the ending (worst case scenario)

Say “I think I have diarrhea” when walking past Anyonep

I think that's what sad is. I'm shocked when there's an actual connection

you think there's an explanation to imagination? -if someone questions your creativity

Whistle a country song

What food does my heart want?

The next people rally meet will be very influential on his life

Riley can observe his anxiety

Riley, you have to observe your anxiety on a daily basis

“I love the way my face looks”

I can survive without seeing myself from someone else's viewpoint

I can survive without guessing what someone is thinking about me

Always find time to just stare at water, you can literally communicate with it

You know you're doing it right when you get Thirsty or Bowel Movement

“We're happy and willing to use you as a conduit, but you also have a lot of attachments, a lot in the way”

Jesus take this feeling from me

The wealthiest people in the world, barely do anything, 4 hour work week

What would it feel like to know you fit in?

Say “Shhhhhh” Anywhere!

What if your whistling made the small mushroom people and machine elves dance around the rooms around people like Harry Potter?

What would it feel like to know you're safe to be autistic as fuck her? Like be as repetitive as possible

What would it feel like to believe that nothing was about you?

What would it feel like to not cosplay people's shadow to fit in?

You have to whisper to your body to get it to

un- clench

I am catching my internalized, parent mid sentence more and more on a daily basis

There is always an exit ramp

What would it feel like to not believe that people are predators and leeches?

Something about my face reminds people that it's going to be okay

I can stir up peoples shadows if I want to

You don't have to hallucinate their shadow discomfort either, this comes to when it's haunting you in looping I'm not talking about sending energy back to rightful owners in public settings

What would it feel like to stop acting as if they're social rules as far as what I can say to someone and as if there's nothing, I have to tiptoe around when I know my intention

Riley does not bully himself

You need to say I am safe 100×200 times over and over on the megaphone

I don't subscribe to needing to feel disappointed because of others expectations. Nope nope nope nope. Nope nope nope. Nope nope. Nope my brain is simply misfiring and it's confused.

I don't have to do anything. My brain is just confused and looping, I don't have to take static personally.

I'm allowed to be gay. My brain is just confused and looping

My brain is confused in this firing, that's not the reality of their thoughts

What would it feel like to stop believing that my parents are a whole year better and more right than I am? What would it feel like to not have to check in with their opinion before expressing myself?

Riley, you need and you will find another Heather get on Tinder this week. You were going to find it this week spirit guides I can and will find another Heather this week.

Why are you trying to do repair work with an identity outgrown that spiritual masochism not growth being advised

My imagination is stronger and bigger than trauma

Every time my name is used negatively I become richer

I am remembering ward my name every single day

If you don't respect your Republican family, why are you worried about what they say then? You know that all changes the moment you have security in community on the West Coast established right?

Every time someone uses my name, good or bad, more opportunities, and abundance come my way

444 mouth breathing while back-and-forth with neck long 8 to 10 second inhale imagine sipping the air like it's water and imagine the air sitting in your body and then leaving when you actually exhale it out like really focus on the wind

I don't have to solve anything about my brain right now

Focus on dial of the breath, not the graph of the mood incline

Riley no longer has to coddle offended hearts

Riley is a millionaire, Riley does not have to brace for impact

You're afraid you can't speak your truth to people because of how elevated you are now, you energetically picked up that if you grow the folk around you will dump on you and shrink you back down into a box so now eve when you want to help people, that narrative is around

I am safe from the pressure of success

I am one decision away from a life changing experience

I am safe to not speculate about people's thoughts

Where is my anxiety coming from Jesus?

I am letting guy of all old stories, I can survive without them

I am letting go of my dads story of how I should be, I can survive without it

I am letting go of my moms story of how I should be, I can survive without it

I am not afraid of the mom that lives here

Highly sensitive kids, the reason why the parents field is the hardest to pick up on, is because for the kid, they see everything they wanted, but for the adult, they may just see everything they hate in themselves….

Clayton, you have an integrated it, I've learned the lesson just with this dog here you get afraid because the dog mirrors something within you so you've scolded it and you run away from it and then you end up extra nice to it because you wanted to come to you, but it's also afraid of you because you scolded it and now I leave you with your own lesson

I am forming healthy neurons

My reality is valid, even if it's not witnessed by someone

It is normal for things to go better than imagined

It is normal for things to just work out for me

If you can stand in the middle of a "glitch"—the gray mood, the pouting, the hypervigilant throat-clench—and not look away, you aren't "embarrassed" anymore. You are Transparent.

Riley I forgive you for not accepting how you feel

Everything sad is not true

Speak apology from their perspective

Drum Mauntras:

“My existence is not a problem”

“I love my forehead, I love my hairline”

“Silence is not dangerous”

I am watching my impatient turn into eagerness

I want personal acknowledgement that there is Nothing that I can't have

Listening to your most powerful money mantras with your eyes closed on your back on the ground or on the bed and visualizing $50,000 cash laying on your stomach is the most profound thing ever

A.T.R: Automatic Trauma Response

I am expecting everyone around me to treat me like I am brilliant

I am getting massive amounts of help everywhere I go

No matter how big the fear, it is not being sniffed out by the people around me

Thank you source for healing all my energy centers

There js a difference between going against vs just seeing sides - trust that there are mediators out there - you are one - I forgive you Riley for not believing that people can be loyal to you (response: not enough, it's the two face) - and then answer is at start of statement.

My body feels strong and able to defend itself

Stop telling me that I missed the message, I learned the lesson, I deserve to heal. There's nothing more stop looking for something hidden stop believing there's something more hidden. I learned the lesson we are ready to heal. We deserve to heal. We are designed to heal do not tell me that I have to suffer more to learn. Do not tell me that I have to suffer more or that I have more comic lessons to learn that's fucking bullshit. That is complete self sabotage.

They're Trying to get you to adopt a new insecurity. It's not going to work.

I love my forehead I love my hairline (while drumming)

I love bullying men and helping them

“Let them get you” -in regards to hypervigilance

“It's 2026, you're not where this emotion happened”

“What's your name?” Do you have a boyfriend?”

I forgive you Riley for…

-believing that everyone has a problem with you

-not paying for you dafes…you are not a criminal

-for acting like a predator towards men

-for believing you're unsafe when people get closer

-for thinking you have to hide when a car is behind you

I know that when I step to my right my body will begin to accept that my noise radius does not go as far as I think it does. And I'm not upsetting as much people as I think I am

I want to film prank porn that turns into gay sex

Real empathy has a 'sacred rage' phase. It's the moment your brain stops people-pleasing and trying to predict everyone's triggers, and starts tuning into what they actually need. That's when curiosity moves from an intellectual concept to a somatic, felt experience—allowing you to hold space and stay present without spiraling into panic or shutdown.

Wow, someone's dad wound got activated, I'm not your dad! Stop trying to get payback on me

I am valuable

What would I do if I knew the answer

The spiraling feeling, it's like brownie batter in an electric swirl machine you stir with jt, it gets that Dark and catastrophic that fast in my head at times

I know it feels like I can't trust anyone, but there is at least one person here I can trust

I will apply as a budtender in Maui tonight

There is no lifestyle that Riley is barred from

I hate the feeling that I'm just being studied like I'm some specimen that doesn't belong or is doing something so strange— that's why New York is so healing l

I Want to see Two Black Guys Fight and Then fuck!!

Wrestle Porn Riley Wrestle Porn

What you think is cynical is just a long observation glance

“Be specific with no resistance”

“I want $10,000 per month from life coaching people through an app eventually”

I travel because my growth isn't a linear timeline—it's entirely geographic. It's as if different parts of my identity are waiting for me at specific coordinates, and I have to physically go to these locations to activate, download, and claim those pieces. Every place holds a specific energetic blueprint that acts as a catalyst for a part of me that's been dormant, offering a unique environmental mirror that lets me see myself with absolute clarity.

One landscape might ground a major concept, while another triggers a massive creative breakthrough that I simply couldn't access anywhere else. There is a strict method to the madness: I move because my evolution requires different environments to transmit different updates, and once an aspect of myself is fully integrated, it's time to find the next mirror.

Yup, they will throw every allegation: Creep, offensive, too much, cringe, too gay, too straight

You always have enough, you've always had enough, and you'll always have enough

When I don't know what nourishes me, I go back to playing again

D.N.R's:

“When Riley steps backward every cell in his physical form can accept that he is only surrounded by people that want to help his physical form get happy and lots of money”

“When Riley steps back right here the cells in his physical form get final confirmation that he is about to receive loads of money to help the world”

“When Riley steps forward, the cells in his gut and his brain are safe to relax and speak slowly”

And what do you want me to do with that information god? Spiral about not being good enough? Panic about not “passing” a “lesson”? What do you want me to do with that information Jesus? When I see a cross? What do you want me to do? Panic that I'm not good enough?

Loop guilt and fear? Stay in worry the rest of the day that I did something wrong in my past that is just so hard for god to get over? Give me a fucking Break!!

Threat detection is on: and that's okay, and this is part of my body

It's just noise, they're all just speaking noise

God, you want me to be authentic but you put me in a sleeping world that values and sees performance? So what's the middle path honey? I am ready for that answer. Answer me Holy Spirit. I am sick of fucking waiting.

Confirmation Yawn

Holy Spirit, I want you to override all critical thinking and logic of the people at this Olive Garden. They will hire me on spot as a dishwasher. I will start tomorrow. You will lock in my living in Jersey city. Case closed. I will get the airline job in a month. You will bring me “Body yes” gay porn collaborations. You will bring me High paying Body yes multimillionaire paypigs this week.

Riley will not wait any longer. Riley will not accept delays. Riley will only accept rapid acceleration.

“Yeah you better. You better honey” -when you notice people's contraction around you

Shake head at people

Jesus, force me to stop and talk to someone who has an answer to what I am looking for

Fart Noises!!! Make Fart Noises!!

every amount of money I give away comes back to me x100

If Riley gives away $100, he gets $10,000 back

I am giving away all of Clayton's money

Say shit that you would hear on overheard la

God I am going to give up on your plan and go drown myself if you do not solve this. fuck you and your Stupid Bullshit!!! fuck you for Making me Suffer When I know Exactly my Potential for Helping this Planet!!! you have put me Through Absolute Hell for no Godamn Reason!!! you Blocked my Potential for no fucking Reason When I was Capable of Increasing the Light!!! you Blocked me for no fucking Reason!! no Reason Whatsoever fuck your Plan God

I know the difference between rumination and heart

I know the difference between villainizing and nuance

I know the difference between a secret enemy and a friend with similar wounds

Kelly, I want to know how to be myself without anger and without using fear on people

I know the difference between someone with evil intention versus someone who sees a better path they could put me on that I don't

I am done using fear to get what I want

Are guilt and shame only clothes tried on when fear is prominent?

I cannot go home out of anticipatory grief, or a forced apology of guilt. After expressing my pain, it has to be a clean slate, I can't live at home just because I feel like my dad's about to pass if there's a phone call or communication that needs to happen it can happen. I'm not going to get anywhere by frantically rushing home right now that doesn't need to happen. Yes, could you have called your mom? Yes, were you being conscious of how you know your nervous system yes could that have hurt her?

Absolutely it did do you need to feel bad no, I mean I can. I can feel for her that that hurt her feelings but that's my pain. Oh my all my thing is I want to be able to express my pain without hurting people I don't know how to do that. Sometimes it feels like the only way I can set a boundary with certain people in my life like my parents is with a stinger because neutrality didn't work. I still felt like they did not respect me, but I know that being mean to someone doesn't get them to respect you. It just gets them to fear you and I'm sorry Riley that that's what you taught.

We're taught that people won't respect you for it so you need to make them fear you.

I'm sorry Riley, I forgive you, I love you

I'm sorry Riley

I forgive you

I love you

This is going to get better Guan Yin

I am allowed to be confident in front of someone who's feelings I hurt

This night keeps getting better Guan Yin

He made his decision, now you just wait for the phone call

“Who are you?”—“Where did you come from?” to internal/pushing punishment/fear of sin

…. Woah Cock in my Mouth Woah

The spiritual narrative that says "everything is a mirror" or "your anger at them is just anger at yourself" can become incredibly toxic when it is used to invalidate real, justified anger against mistreatment. Sometimes, anger isn't an unintegrated projection—sometimes it is just the healthy, necessary signal that you have been pushed past your limit by people who failed to protect or respect you. Cavemen didn't sit around analyzing their natal charts to figure out if they were allowed to defend their perimeter from a threat; they just defended it.

I am not this feeling of exile, I am not these thoughts of escaping punishment, I am not even this body

I am not this feeling of exclusion, I am not these thoughts of panic, I am not even this body

I am not this feeling of pushing, I am not these thoughts of how to get out, I am not even this body

I am not this feeling of Oh no, I am not these thoughts of how do I get out, I am not even this body

I am not this feeling of freeze, I am not these thoughts of panic, I am not even this body

Whoever my spirit guide is, what is your opinion on Lindsey?

There are no sounds Riley has to listen to to stay alive right now

I am not someone who people just want to tear down

I do not have to be afraid that people are just going to shame me and tear me down

What would it feel like to believe that evil eye is being repelled from you at all times, even when you're hesitant, even when you're pissed off, even when you don't even feel like being alive? What would it feel like to believe that evil eye is repelled from you at all times?

I am not weaker than everyone

I am not guilty for my nature

I am not guilty for my desires

I am learning to let people in

I am not a con artist

I am someone who wants to understand someone's internal world and what they Need

I am not someone who thinks they know better than people

I am not someone who talks over people

Why are you afraid of your pee pigs when you can literally control them and make them make their life better?

I am feeling frustrated, because I only ever had anxiety that was just a feeling, not something that feels like it completely hijacks my entire body mood and stability.

I am feeling frustrated because I just want to be able to travel freely in this world and my finances are very low because I require a deeper connection with people

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